I just updated my website geeyouareyou.com… which actually stands for "Gee, you are you" or G.U.R.U. for short…check out my website to see pictures of me and Osho… as well as personal articles and cosmic jokes.
For over thirty years now, I have been spending six months a year at the Osho Meditation Resort and six months a year in the West. While in India, I have always stayed in touch with my family and friends first through letters… you remember stamps, don’t you? And then by email. Now I am beginning a monthly newsletter whose sole aim is to make me a "joke unto myself".
"Buddha’s message in short is: Be a light unto yourself. And mine? Be a joke unto yourself!" - Osho.
Following is an article I recently wrote for the Osho Viha Magazine.
When I grow up, I want to be a kid.
By Krishna Prem (Michael Mogul)
My body just turned sixty years old.
Thank heavens I am not my body. Or am I?
In any event, when my body was just shy of thirty I met Osho and I immediately began growing up instead of growing old.
A nice trick, picked up from a master magician.
At that time my brother Brian met his guru, Dr. Milton Erickson, of hypnosis fame. As brothers, we were always competitive, so why not have a friendly banter on whose guru knows more?
Certainly Osho won, in my humble opinion, hands down.
But one thing Milton Erickson said to my brother always stayed with me. Milton Erickson said to my bro, "There are only three kinds of people on this earth: little sized kids, middle sized kids and big sized kids."
For thirty years now, I have looked upon modern man trying to prove my brother’s guru wrong, and shit if that guy didn’t have something to say.
But after exhausting myself trying to grow up, I stumbled on an original answer.
Not a "somebody" that grows up or down, although I guess you might call me a "nobody."
In a humorous, funny sort of way, I have given this new "me," or better yet, this new "not me," the nickname Turiya.
As Osho has explained many times in his discourses, the word "Turiya" refers to the fourth state of consciousness.
The first three we all know: waking sleeping and dreaming. Turiya simply means "the fourth," a humble kind of name, but with big implications, because it refers to the cosmic consciousness inside us all.
So I am now happy to announce that I have discovered a fourth kind of kid that I have nicknamed "my Turiya-sized kid."
Yes I am still a kid, but a Turiya-sized kid. A kid who somehow "grew in," not a kid who grew up or old.
It’s nice to be me now.
I am no longer growing.
I am no longer maturing.
It’s simply OK.
As my friend Rahasya once said to me before she left my adopted home town of Amsterdam for Mill Valley, "I don’t know and I don’t need to know."
When Rahasya said this to me, almost matter-of-factly, over a beer at sunset in the Vondel Park, the penny dropped for me.
I actually don’t know what she meant, but what I heard, in my inner gut, was, "Krishna Prem, when are you going to stop giving up the here-and-now, while you wait for a rosy future?"
And if you don’t understand my gibberish, well, the old KP might have been sad about that, seeing how grown-up language just can’t convey what he really means.
But, as my Turiya-sized kid, I only need to throw you a bucket and spade and say, "Hey, there’s plenty of room in the sand box."
That’s how I feel. I am just a kid playing in the unknowable sand box.
I wear many hats of a big-sized kid. I pay the rent. I drive a car. I act mature. But as soon as I can, I take my hats off and relax.
In a sense, my ego is a hat – a hat that is really useful and practical these days as a bucket to fill with sand to make castles with.
What size kid are you? One that’s busy growing, busy postponing, waiting for the golden future, or the one that knows how to play?
Krishna "The Turiya Sized Kid" Prem
Ps … It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. Or as George Bernard Shaw put it, "We don’t stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing."
"And remember, and always keep it in your heart: truth, love, life, meditation, ecstasy, bliss, all that is true and beautiful and good, always exists as a paradox: in the world, and not of it; with people, yet alone; doing everything, and being inactive; moving and not moving; living an ordinary life, and yet not being identified with it; working as everybody else is working, yet remaining aloof deep down."
"Being in the world and not of the world, that is the paradox. And when you attain this paradox, the greatest peak happens to you: the peak experience."
- And the Flowers Showered Chapter #8 Tozan’s Five Pounds
Finally, I want to leave you with old joke about myself . . .
A man walking along a California beach was deep in prayer. All of a sudden, he said out loud, "Lord grant me one wish." Suddenly the sky clouded above his head and in a booming voice… The Lord said, "Because you have TRIED to be faithful to me in all ways, I will grant you one wish."
The man said, "Build a bridge to Hawaii, so I can drive over anytime I want." The Lord said, "Your request is very materialistic. Think of the enormous challenges for that kind of undertaking. The supports required to reach the bottom of the Pacific! The concrete and steel it would take! I can do it, but it is hard for me to justify your desire for worldly things. Take a little more time and think of another wish, a wish you think would honor and glorify me."
The man thought about it for a long time. Finally he said "Lord, I wish that I could understand women. I want to know how they feel inside, what they are thinking when they give me the silent treatment, why they cry, what they mean when they say ’nothing’, and how I can make a woman truly happy."
The Lord replied, "You want two lanes or four on that bridge?"